Thoughts for today...

This week has been one of those weeks- many ups and downs; yet somehow God continues to pick me up when I'm at my lowest. I can't comprehend God's mercy and faithfulness and goodness, but I know that it is true, real and genuine. I find myself getting so bogged down with the negative things that happen, that I sometimes miss the positive that comes in the same day. I wish it wasn't like that, but I'm human. It happens. My boyfriend, Jason, has been so encouraging to me, and yesterday he reminded me that I have to look at the positive throughout the day. I can't focus on the negative because knowing me, I will become depressed very easily. That's Satan's way of attacking me- telling me that I'm not going to make it, that I'm not good enough, and to let my emotions get the best of me. And the crazy thing is, is that I buy that lie- I do. I buy is over and over again. I wish there was an easier way to deal with the anxiety and stress that Satan throws my way, but I have come to the realization that God is bigger than any lie Satan tells me, whether I buy it and fall, or whether I completely turn the opposite way and stand tall. It's easier said than done, but I have set a goal for myself, and Jason is helping me- my goal is to thank God daily for what He has given me and to look past the negative and towards the positive. Christ died for me, for you, for sinners, for the broken and bruised like me, and yet I never thank Him enough for allowing so many positive things to happen to me. I am SO blessed, and yet I continue to get  down on myself and forget to thank God for His goodness in my life . There will always be times in life where nothing makes sense and we wonder why certain things happen. Welcome to my life. BUT, there is hope! It is Jesus Christ. My prayer is that each one of us- Christian or not, man or woman, depressed or joyful- will remember that there is always good, we just have to look for it and acknowledge it. If we don't, you'll end up in an emotional mess just like I was. No it's not easy, and even at this moment I'm struggling with issues that only God knows about, but I know one thing- God is on my side, and Satan can have NO part in my life. God has already won; Satan can try to devour my life and ruin my attitude, but I WILL persevere with the very one who gave me my strength to do so. I pray that if you are in a similar situation that you will not hesitate to first, call on the name of the Lord, and second, talk to someone. That's how I got through; I had God and friends who listened, offered their best advice, and prayed me through.  always here, willing to listen to whatever you're going through. Praying for you, brother and sister in Christ! Let's go out and be a vessel for Christ!